My Goodbye [09 Jul 2004|12:02pm] [ mood | grateful ] [ music | Brand New - The Quiet Things That No One Ever Knows ] Oh how things have changed over the past few weeks....lost a best friend, a family member, and everything and everybody that I thought i knew suddenly left me standing alone at a crossroads to plan the next chapter of my life. It was seriously the hardest thing I've ever had to deal with but I'm happy to say that I am at peace with the whole thing at last. People's opinions of me are pretty much set in stone and there's nothing I could've done to change their minds. I want to thank all of my former friends from the past 4 years who have taught me more than I could ever learn in any college course. All of you have given me reason to be the person I am today (both the bad and good aspects of me) and I can never repay you all for helping me grow as a person. My life has been a strange but amazing rollercoaster ride the past few weeks. Friends from school have suddenly become more important and much more fun to me. And I've made new friends outside of school friends too and they are mostly magic nerds but hey so am I. I feel like I've really closed the door behind me finally and as hard as that reality is to swallow it is my reality nonetheless. I've had a few nights these past few weeks where I'll dream that I'm hanging out with rob and sabby and other people and everything is fine but then I wake up and I'm either at a friend's house or at home in my bed. It's those mornings when it's really hard for me to get up and start my day because I will continue to miss all of you so much. I wish nothing but the best for all of you and I hope you all go on to lead amazing lives because you are all amazing people. As for the numerous wrongs I've done to you, please forgive me, because I want to look back on our friendships and smile one day and I want you all to be able to do the same. But as for attempts at communication, that would be too hard for to deal with. So this is the last time I will be writing to you all, I love each and every one of you for the lessons you've taught me, I apologize for the times I hurt any of you, and I will always be thankful that you were a part of my life. Remember D&D Remember car rides and sing-a-longs Remember deep conversations and cigarettes Remember Tex-Mex Taqueria Remember Endless amounts of concerts But most of all...remember that I tried my hardest, and that I will continue to try my hardest for the people in my life now and in the future. This is David Montoya, signing out 1 comment|post comment

Summer.... [20 Jun 2004|01:31pm] [ mood | anxious ] [ music | Northstar ] Been a while eh? Been busy busy busy...working, that is....not having fun like most of the people my age. It's weird though, everytime I do have a free minute I'll call someone to hang out or even just chat to catch up and they won't answer their phone. I guess I should've seen it coming, nuff' said. Anyway, been hanging out with Jill a little bit lately, it had been too long and I missed her. I spent too much time this past year neglecting my once good friends and for that, guys, I'm really sorry. Little late but I felt like saying it anyway so there ya go. I've been keeping myself quite busy lately in case I didn't mention that already. It's been stressful but I needed to preoccupy myself so it's cool. Getting ready to go to my uncle's house for a father's day party thing. My dad will be there and......yeah....well good to talk to you guys....pick up your phones!!theres no reason why we shouldnt be talking....later... post comment

"Mad World" [27 May 2004|02:58pm] [ mood | hopeful ] [ music | Northstar ] *I've been meaning to update for a long time, mainly because I haven't been able to find the right words for everything I've been feeling inside. I finally figured that there's other ways to say how I feel besides speaking from my mind* All around me are familiar faces Worn out places, worn out faces Bright and early for their daily races Going nowhere, going nowhere Their tears are filling up their glasses No expression, no expression Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow No tomorrow, no tomorrow And I find it kinda funny I find it kinda sad The dreams in which I'm dying Are the best I've ever had I find it hard to tell you I find it hard to take When people run in circles It's a very, very mad world mad world Children waiting for the day they feel good Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday Made to feel the way that every child should Sit and listen, sit and listen Went to school and I was very nervous No one knew me, no one knew me Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson Look right through me, look right through me And I find it kinda funny I find it kinda sad The dreams in which I'm dying Are the best I've ever had I find it hard to tell you I find it hard to take When people run in circles It's a very, very mad world ... world Enlarge your world Mad world To the few people in my life who keep me going everyday, thank you so much. I don't think you will ever know how much I appreciate what changes you have made in my life. To those who have recently let me down, I'd like to think it's not the end. I truly believe this summer will be badass, because I will be spending it with the people I care about. I'm sure there will be problems along the way, but hopefully we can overcome them and do our best to just have fun... Till next time 1 comment|post comment

Girls, Girls, Girls [04 Apr 2004|12:19pm] [ mood | content ] [ music | Paloalto "Coming Back From The Sun" ] Well, it's going to be an interesting week. I'm supposed to have lunch with this girl that I've been kinda into everyday this week to see if our friendship has the potential to become something more. I'm excited about it but worried that I might fall too hard, even though I've become somewhat of an expert on controlling myself in such situations. Wish me luck everybody, I'm tired of typing now...lata. 1 comment|post comment

"as you see there's no one around..." [26 Mar 2004|11:22am] [ mood | content ] [ music | ....uh....THIS song.... ] "1979" Shakedown 1979, cool kids never have the time On a live wire right up off the street You and I should meet Junebug skipping like a stone With the headlights pointed at the dawn We were sure we'd never see an end to it all And I don't even care to shake these zipper blues And we don't know Just where our bones will rest To dust I guess Forgotten and absorbed into the earth below Double cross the vacant and the bored They're not sure just what we have in store Morphine city slippin dues down to see That we don't even care as restless as we are We feel the pull in the land of a thousand guilts And poured cement, lamented and assured To the lights and towns below Faster than the speed of sound Faster than we thought we'd go, beneath the sound of hope Justine never knew the rules, Hung down with the freaks and the ghouls No apologies ever need be made, I know you better than you fake it To see that we don't even care to shake these zipper blues And we don't know just where our bones will rest To dust I guess Forgotten and absorbed into the earth below The street heats the urgency of now As you can see there's no one around 2 comments|post comment

Back to School... [26 Mar 2004|11:08am] [ mood | content ] [ music | "1979" ] Well, getting back to good ol' UH was fun this week. As much as I enjoyed the time off, I couldn't wait to get back for some reason. It was all good and fun until EuroHis, when I got stuck with my friend and a complete moron as partners. I think of myself as a lazy person on occasion, but my partners are LAAAAAZZZYYYY, I pretty much did all of the work and that kinda ruined what could have been a nice, pleasant week at school. Meanwhile on the homefront, the week was pretty relaxed, rob had to spend a lot of time at rehearsal so I didn't get to see him much this week, so that made things a little more stressful but I made it through. Last night I went to see his UIL one-act. I thought it was a good show, and when they didn't advance, I was kind of surprised and I felt bad for them, but they seem to be fine now. This weekend's shaping up to be pretty normal but to tell you the truth, normal doesn't seem so bad after this week... post comment

Spring Break: Take It or Leave It [22 Mar 2004|05:53pm] [ mood | happy ] [ music | "Take It Or Leave It" ] The concert last night was really badass and it ended a week that in my opinion was full of problems and situations that may have sucked ass, but in the end I learned a lot through them, as cliche as that sounds. It was brought to my attention today from a friend in my Edu602 class that I probably wouldn't have made it through this past week if I would have had to face it alone. So, thanks Rob. I don't know why but life's been kicking us in the asses lately buddy. AND in similar ways too! How screwed up was it that both of us had uncles in the hospital this past week? Anyhoo, this past week, if anything, taught me that life will continously throw shit at you, and it will never get easier, but it's how you learn to handle yourself when things get you down that help you truly develop as a person. Ok, ok, all insight aside, this Spring Break may have sucked on the fun meter (The Strokes being the only exception, but I will always remember it, because I came out a stronger person in the end. Till next time... 7 comments|post comment

Attack of the Crips [21 Mar 2004|11:22am] [ mood | anxious ] [ music | THE STROKES BABY! ] So last night Kyle, Rob and I were walking in Rob's neighborhood, and to make a long story short (considering half the world already knows), we got roughed up by a couple of members of the elite fighting force known as The Crips. Rob kinda got it the worst, and all we have to show for our efforts are a lost zippo, an aching head (Rob), sore ribs (me), and an itchy arm (kyle) [you do get SOME credit].It was something that initially scared the crap out of all of us, we made our escape in a very James Bond-like manner, in the words of Jordan "I felt like a supastaw". But once an hour passed, it immediately became the story of the night, we made hundreds laugh at denny's with our tale of battle. OK, maybe not hundreds, but DEFINITELY three. Overall, it was something we can all look back on and laugh, once my battle wound heals that is.... Rob, Kyle and David....."BLOODS" FO' LIFE! 2 comments|post comment

Tonight, Tonight [21 Mar 2004|11:07am] [ mood | anxious ] [ music | The Strokes ] Woo hoo!!!! 8 hrs. and 52 min. left til' The Strokes, I can't wait!!!! post comment

"our lives are changing, lanes have ran me off the road" [20 Mar 2004|01:49pm] [ mood | excited ] [ music | Um, let's see.....THE STROKES! ] Hopefully this weekend will make up for the relatively crappy spring break week I've had, I just keep telling myself "its just another week", but I do wish I could've had a little more fun. Tonight there might a party at a friend's house, and I think whether I decide to booze it up or not, I'll have a fun time. I'm mainly looking forward to tomorrow, because at 8 in the evening I will be having the time of my life at a badass concert, The Strokes put on an amazing show. One more day, one more day, one more day.........in the words of jon lovitz "im off like a prom dress!" 3 comments|post comment

It Wasn't Shit Water [18 Mar 2004|05:40pm] [ mood | content ] [ music | Maroon 5 ] Well kiddies, my spring break hasn't been amazing, but it also hasnt been that bad, its basically just been another week in the life of this starbucks lovin' foreigner. My best friend's been having family issues all week, and I've been right there with him for the ride. Its basically all summed up in one phrase "It wasn't shit water" im not explain that quote, those who know, laugh. Well, I've got a party on sat. and the strokes on sun. so at least this whole week hasnt been a waste, lata 2 comments|post comment

as the curtain falls, we bid you all goodnight... [16 Mar 2004|12:26am] [ mood | still content ] [ music | The Smashing Pumpkins baby! ] "This Time" This time I need to know I really must be told If it's over It's up to you uou know The things you want to hold Are in pieces Crashing down Crashing down again Crashing down Crashing down my freinds I've got to move it on I've got to sing my song While I still can Dispatch the last alarms Hand out the last few charms There's no surprises Only love Only love can win Crashing down Crashing down again Only love Yeah only love will win Crashing down Crashing down again This time I need to know I really must be told That it's over I've lived my life alone My every step foretold To never linger And yet it haunts me so What are we letting go Our spell is broken Crashing down Crashing down my friends Crashing down Crashing down again Only love Yeah only love will Be enough Yeah only love will win For every chemical You trade a piece of your soul With no return And who you think you know Doesn't know you at all Their drain is needless Someday we'll wave hello And wish we'd never waved goodbye To this romance We'll drink up every line And shoot up every word Till there's no more Crashing down Crashing down my friends Only love Only love can win So cry these tears we'll cry as all We've held so long to fall apart As the curtain falls we bid you all goodnight 1 comment|post comment

Galveston, and how I didnt go [15 Mar 2004|11:17pm] [ mood | content ] [ music | Coldplay ] Well, I ended up not going to Galveston, and the only person who didnt react with support was Jill, as usual, but its cool, i still love her. I wasnt feeling it, worried about getting arrested and such. I do wish I couldve gone but I was just too worried, oh well....I just hope I can have SOME fun this spring break, cause so far its been alright. oh and i bought a dreamcast tonight, good times... post comment

Trips and Such [15 Mar 2004|03:51pm] [ mood | discontent ] [ music | The Smashing Pumpkins ] Ah Spring Break, a time of fun and crazyness, a time where you and you're closest friends get together to have a week of absolute madness.....WHAT HAPPENED TO THAT FOR ME? This break for me has kinda sucked so far, I find myself falling into my savior complex again, "taking one for the team" over and over...it's getting old, I do enjoy making my friends happy but I seem to always let it happen at my expense. Whats worse is that even when the situation is well within my control, I can't bring myself to get it together and make a smart decision. I've always hated that about myself, but I don't see myself changing anytime soon so I guess I've gotta just deal. Well, to everyone reading this, HAVE A FUN SPRING BREAK to make up for mine so far....later 1 comment|post comment

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